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New Year, New Stories, New Intentions….the Works January 1, 2011

If you’ve been reading my blog awhile, you’ll know perhaps that one of MY favorite things, on this earthly planet, is time alone, snugged in my bed in the morning, computer on my lap and a cup of joe by my side. Learning to be by oneself, relish the moments, taking the time to be with yourself, is a gift for sure.

When I was in the ‘midst’ of graduating from high school, my very best friend at the time, (Liz is still one of my dearest), wrote me a lovely letter which though I’m not one to gather and collect such things, I somehow wish I still had. She wrote to me of the importance of learning to enjoy ones own company, the solitude, the peace, learning to live without the entertainment, company, distractions of others.

Brother Johnny!

I grew up the youngest of three children, brothers just older enough to not be a part of their ‘friend crowd’. When my parents divorced (I was 12) and my mother built an A Frame in the forest and my brothers were off to private school living elsewhere….I was the ‘only’ child. I came to love the company of my animals (we always had several and then, 2 dogs, a cat and 2 goats as I recall)! I’d take long treks in the field beyond the forest where we lived to walk in the violet patches, gather forest plants to make terrariums, bring my paints into the field, (followed by all my four footers) and paint what I saw in the distance.

My eldest brother Jeffery, presented with a photo of himself as a wee one!

These were I find later, important times and my dear friend Liz was correct, learning to be alone was an acquired skill and a gift.

I know as well the absolute gift of both friends and family.

I spent last evening in the company of another dear friend, Janice and her family and friends, eating Moroccan food, sipping wine and sharing stories. I consider this morning where I feel I want to spend my time in this new year. I have weathered some emotional, financial and business storms these last few years, enormously grateful for what that time has taught me. I am more certain of my own abilities and strengths and places where I choose not to tarry. I am less triggered by others, their thoughts of me, my choices or how I choose to live my life. And I feel a connection to heart, mine and the hearts of others in new ways.

I am clear of the opportunities presented to us daily to choose, choose to be right or loving, rested or weary, uplifted or defeated….it’s so clearly up to us. I am choosing some exciting movement for this new year, eager to share the fruits of both my creativity and labor. I envision fun, fond creations, love at every turn and enormous prosperity.

It’s a choice. So here we go.

I wish you all good, your hearts desire, the ability for you to listen to your heart and always, always, great love. For without love and the expression of our own innate creativity, however it is manifest, why heavens would we tarry a minute on this earth?!

Passion, peace, joy, creativity, love, fun and the fulfillment of our heart’s desire!

A New Year of the most delectable sorts to one and all. Go for it! Swiiiing it baby….do!!

With love,

BB Webb

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Making things what they are… February 5, 2010

…before you can change them.

I was presented this notion many years ago and am considering it as I ponder with eyes wide open this evening.

I am considering how we delude ourselves and often decide to ‘not face the music,’ (a quite interesting expression). Why would someone NOT want to face the music? Because they don’t want to hear? Ahhh, maybe that’s it….thinking out loud….

I digress…

If I were a lazy person, and decided I wanted to not be so lazy, I would have to first admit and realize the truth about myself….that I was indeed lazy.

Well, I’m not lazy, so I can face THAT music.

Another favorite thought of mine relates here as well, ‘how you do anything, is how you do everything.’ If I’m a lazy sycophant at work, chances are, I’m a lazy sycophant at home. Maybe.

Well, laziness isn’t my issue, but I have others!…and come on, we all do, or why are we on planet earth for heaven’s sake. (Curious expression, ‘for heaven’s sake’, I can’t BEGIN to fathom where THAT one came from….enlighten me please if you know. Maybe because heaven is so cool, we should do things, for heaven’s sake…because it is HEAVEN).

I’m all over the board tonight.

(The ‘board’….imagine being from another country coming here….how would you know what things mean??)

Back to my premise….making things what they are…my inestimable mother had a practice which she shared with me. I remember her conversation with me most clearly. In her loving and sincere, caring tone she told me,

‘Honey, we all have issues, things we are working through. That’s life and that’s good. But imagine you have a filing cabinet and it is FILLED with the many ‘issues’ you contemplate. Imagine just taking one of the issue files out of your filing cabinet a day. And one by one, you will solve your mysteries, conquer your fears, learn to master who you are and why you were brought here.’

She was wise in so many ways. (Funny too, hysterical in moments….roll off the sofa laughing sort of mom. Gooolly where is Kitty Vogel now? That lovely Romanesque nose, those pretty hazel eyes. Playing cards in ‘heaven’ I was told, for heaven’s sake, well, and her own, she loved playing cards!

Allow me to dream a moment here. To have just an hour with her again, sharing her wisdom and her love for me, playing cards to watch her laugh and smile. (She ALWAYS beat me at both scrabble and rummy). If not physically, in spirit, (truly) she was in each audience where I performed, her face appeared in each scary new endeavor I had, giving me courage. SHE was a champion of rare cut.

I do however sense her always in the ether, but in the flesh was sooooo much better. I am a spiritual being, of course, having this often peevish human experience and I like to touch things, to hug my friends, to feel the fur on my kitty Lester’s back, the warmth of hot tea going down my throat and how my flannel sheets feel when I crawl inside them each night, better yet next to someone I find scrumptious. I like all my senses. I relish parts of being human.

Other parts honestly suck, but I understand the need for it all.

But….making things what they are. It’s empowering to ‘face the music,’ to OWN in a sense where you are. With no shame, no embarrassment, (as that’s just other people’s judgements which we shame ourselves with). But, to admit you are out of shape and want to be fit, is a first step toward change. If you are messy and want to be a tidy fellow, well, knowing the truth about yourself is a great first step. It’s good, it’s real, it’s bold.

I like bold!

To know that you only tell half the truth and want to be more transparent, ahhh, good to know.

Or sitting with your grief, your discontent, your anxiousness. One must move ‘through’ where we are to get to another place, as there is NO other way. There are no short cuts to getting rich, becoming fit, healthy or moving through ‘things’ until you simply make them what they are, feel it all, (no numbing out now) and tra laaaa, you will find yourself somewhere new. And truly, each step for me is ultimately ALWAYS better. I like better!

I like that….growth, a new day, a new, better perhaps, way of being, or living, a new hairstyle, (always fun), new food, new travel, new adventure, new comrades to share your journey, new ways to be loving, of course.

If you are unhappy and want to find happiness, you need first admit where you are and then look within yourself, not outside yourself, for solutions. Where might I change things in my life. Do I need new friends, a new job, a new mate, a better me?

Oh good heavens, I’m preaching to the choir, honestly, (Curious expression as well, I guess the choir has heard it ALL!)

Carolyn Myss wrote a book I’ve mentioned before and which I found quite revealing, amazing really. It’s called, ‘Anatomy of the Spirit’. In this book, Ms. Myss discusses how physical ailments arrive in our lives when we are not living in tandem with where our spirits, our souls need to be. She chronicles the lives of many people who once they made significant life changes, how their ailment disappeared as they moved into the right life for them.

They admitted, ‘fessed up’ to where they were, and in making that real and conscious, they could change things.

I am undergoing GREAT shifts in my life…and I feel it has been long in coming, (though I always feel that…I’m a little impatient….ooooh…..okay, I hear guffaws of laughter from all reaches of the Universe…, I’m probably VERY impatient). I am willing to ‘face the music’ and I hope that this music in time will be something uproariously grand and that a large ballroom or field is involved with partners in every corner to dance with as I am over-ready, over-done, perhaps undone and ready to go. I’m ready to go.

Evening thoughts by a Georgia fire in the woods.

BB Webb

 

Keeping the light on. February 1, 2010

With the myriad of dense energy I’ve found myself mucking about in lately, realizing my inner zing and joy was a bit diminished, I knew it was up to me, and only me to turn things around….to turn my light back on. I have a lot of light and typically, great energy and joy, despite normal week to week frustrations and my last crazy butt year and a half. But lately I’ve been stuck energetically in the mud!

And so, I called upon my healer pals, a diverse group of people from all professions, ages, nationalities and reasons for wanting to know better how to live in our world, with joy, in peace, with robust health, in love and on purpose, connected indeed to the spiritual part of themselves.

Chakras and our etheric field, we're all connected!

Suffice it to say, laying on the table of an individual who has tapped into his or her healing abilities, (we all have them), one who knows how to tune into the energy in and around the body, is something special indeed. As I get heavy in mindy earth bound day to day ‘stuff’ I forget what I know to do….like ‘breath BB’. (I appreciate reminders), move, (dancing being my preferred choice), and to sit quietly to hear what I need to hear!

When I do, (and how hard should it be), I remember, I remember better who I am, what I stand for, my intent, my connection to God and a host of other supporters in ether form. I remember and ALWAYS feel better. And I’m serious here on a topic which I don’t know how to speak about well, yet.

We are energy, we have an etheric field which is around our body and which represents the physical, mental and spiritual parts of ourselves and energy wheels, (which can actually be measured physically), called chakras. All true! And these energy fields can become distorted, from emotional trauma, an injury, by not taking care of yourself, not being loved properly. While studying with Dr. Fernand Poulin of Whitewinds Institute for Energy Healing, I learned to sense the distortions and with intent, manipulate the energy to assist an individual in clearing away energies which aren’t productive.

In time you’ll hear more about energy healing. But look it up online or go visit Fernand or my new partner in healing, Janice Davey. I’ve seen Fernand remedy and cure things which weren’t helped by allopathic medicine. The work is amazing.

Janice combines her massage and essential oil knowledge with energy healing. On Sunday she gifted me with 2 hours of one of the most powerful healing sessions I’ve experienced, and I’ve had many. (‘Tune ups’ I call them)! How good to let go of attachments to people I need to let go of, to ideas, hurts and to instead, let new energy (light) in. She asked if my lower back had been sore and YES, badly so. She felt a blockage in my sacral area. Better now. We store memories and hurts in our bodies, all which can be intentionally released. Bye bye. And how good instead to move new life force and clean energy throughout my body.

And though I might lose you here, Janice has guides who come to help her, (yes, in spirit form). (We all do you know). At one time she was working on my head and I felt hands on my abdomen and working on the energy field around my heart.

Amazing all that. There is so much to experience beyond what meets the eye.

I feel the lightness returning to me and will get back to practicing what I know so well, taking time to tune into the divine energy we all have access to at any moment, while releasing the energies which serve us not. It’s all part of the process of being spiritual beings having these human experiences.

This work enthralls me. (Old as the hills really). So, if you dare, be open, as really, what is there to lose??

I stumbled upon the video below, with a scientific bent really, which may or may not interest you. (I feel it’s worth the 4 and a half minute watch, music by Delirium….very cool)! Apparently created by the Humanity Healing Network, an organization I just stumbled upon as well.

People working to do good! Here’s to balanced chakras and oodles of light!

Keep your fire burning, mon, come on…you must!

You might have interest in this video? Scroll down the page to where it has the YouTube link.

BB Webb

 

The Road Not Taken… October 22, 2009

ForestTonight….I Am Considering the Road, for me, Not Yet Taken…

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I–
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

…Robert Frost