BB Webb as BB Webb!

Exploring the Possibilities

Ride that wave cowgirl….you’ve earned it! July 9, 2011

‘This or better’ says I… and better is streaming in…

but that’s a choice.

We’re moving forward with our tv pilot.

My newly assembled team is sharp and on point,

I’ve found a new potential business partner who understands my vision for the land behind Carl House and we think similarly….each with our own talents…

love is in the air in all directions with time for a vacation!

Now, that’s some damn manifesting….and 2012 not even here yet.

A breath in each moment….it’s all coming and going, coming and going…

And as the old rises and shows it’s fear spots, I breathe again and realize I have a choice in EVERY moment.

‘And so it is’…’and so it is’ I remind myself.

Hot summer in Georgia….an event with 227 people at my venue and me here with rum and tonic with lime….enjoying the evening and the newness that surrounds me.

Good. Very good. Ride this wave cowgirl….and don’t, please don’t fence me in!

And tomorrow, coming on like peaches ripening. As it does.

BB Webb

 

Lightness and Being… July 1, 2011

There is a shift happening on our planet…a major shift. And I feel myself moving to new places….I’m not ‘myself’ for ‘myself’ is changing. As I feel the ‘old’ in my world coming up again, feelings, situations that I recognize, I realize they are the mirages I need to catapult me elsewhere…..somewhere more fitting for who I am becoming. It’s challenging, this process. I am out of my comfort zone for sure.


Just where I (in ways) like to be. Moving forward, moving forward….

To me, it’s something about moving into ‘heart energy’, moving away from pain and fear into an unconditional acceptance and love toward ourselves and others.

How does THAT fit into our current world. Might we be willing to let go of the pain and suffering which we all embrace more often than we might or like to?

Heart Energy....it has its own vibration

I am having my own awakenings. I am experiencing many of the old unfavorite feelings coming forth, asking me ‘do you really want to be here….again’?

The answer is a clear and emphatic ‘NO!’ Awareness first, and then the conscious choice to CHANGE. ME, as this is no one else’s job.

So, I sit with the discomfort as best I can and know in doing so, it will shift to something new.

How to ‘be love’….keep a connection to something greater than me. Allow others to BE who they are and not let who they are affect me. And then, what am I willing or unwilling to accept in my world?

How might I BE love….stay in that connected state….connected to the love that is available to us moment by moment? And, what IS ecstatic bliss. How might we move there, stay there?

I recently had a basic numerology reading….I find this ancient art, science….fascinating. The fllowing paragraph, about ME, captivated my attention.

‘You also have a tendency to jump to conclusions or make assumptions about others without fully analyzing the matter first. People are often startled by your tendency to “look before you leap.” For this reason, you need a right hand man or woman or some kind of best friend to encourage you to sleep on important matters before you make a split decision. ‘

I find this to be true. And…

‘You love change. You live to experience as much as possible in the shortest amount of time possible. You appreciate the fact that life is short and are bound and determined to make the most of every minute you have on this earth. You have an inquisitive mind and a thirst for adventure that is only slaked by the collecting of unusual experiences and plenty of travel.

Your adaptable nature puts you at home anywhere. You are also a bit of chameleon that is able to transform its appearance and nature to suit the environment. You are a big believer in the phrase “When in Rome.. Do as the Romans do.” Your closet is usually full of many costumes, as part of your soul’s satisfaction is to do a bit of “play acting” in real life.’

This all resonates with me. And I question…

How to BE REAL with ‘what is’….be with the pain, the joy…stay with it 100% and things can easily shift and shift and shift! How might we move into ‘God consciousness’. I want heaven on earth. And again, isn’t that up to ME to divine. Sure it is!

‘You believe that an expression of true love for another soul is the courage to let them go to pursue their own path’.

Certainly my mind agrees and my heart too though it snags on old stories which have been coming up for me to release….as they are just stories where I forget my own connection and divinity.

So today…being with what is…not so comfortable as I’m a one speedy for comfort and solutions. Sometimes things take time….this pot needs to boil before bubbling over into something new.

And, it will. I trust that it will and no doubt sooner than I realize.

BB Webb

 

No, not a meltdown…. June 20, 2011

….maybe I’m in need of a Cool Off at this point in my day.

My dog Ernie woke me by jumping on my bed, (pretty much not allowed) at 5am. I remember seeing a small tick on my sheets the other evening after he did the same thing and POPPED out of bed this morning determined to not awaken with a grey tick engorged on my forehead.

Awwww, that’s gross.

The day has tumbled about in a gray, mired, misery and though I know that IT, like a bloated belly, (damn, I’m full of the fun images today), passes…..I’m just not able to get my arms around things in a matter I prefer today and I’m uneasy.

So, I’ll allow a venting of sorts though will mostly take it out on a loooong evening fast walk up and down hills tonight. I’m sort of pissed.

Pissed when people fall short of expectations, or when I fall short of my own.

Upset when disconnects bring back memories that have NOTHING to do with what might be currently disconnecting.

Weary, perhaps of my mind and her shuffling about periodically with doom and gloom, certainly after rallying for YEARS now on such a different path.


But, I am human, I fall short, I forget and most of all, I’m DOG TIRED.

Well, fitting all that, with the early morning doggie wake up call.

Tomorrow, a new day to appreciate the NEW people I met today, (some terrific ones), the work done, the efforts rallied and that I’m here, on the earth to explore, create, meet neat folks, stumble and get up to try again. And, maybe fall in love.

BB Webb

 

The Time It Takes… May 30, 2011

I’m wondering a bit at the time it takes to reinvent your world. A tad hard to determine in exact measure, but it certainly takes awhile. And for me, it sets any old routines a-kilter a bit…and frankly, I’m rather fond of ‘a-kilter’. I like creating new, bold strokes, moving with some speed. Yet, this weekend I better understood my need to slow and be present in perhaps a new way to all that is rumbling about.

I had two incidents over the last week and a half where I thought on both occasions that my dogs were gone, one lost and another with an unfortunate dog fight which happened while they were traveling with me in my jeep. Everyone is fine, but drama was clearly afoot.

Bonnie, mama dog, is nearly totally deaf, 15 -17 years old, (the vet and I can’t really say), wandered away just before the LARGE storm we had last week, (which took down huge limbs at my house….one I was concerned might plunge through my large window). She is afraid of storms and was nowhere to be found….all very uncharacteristic. Our electricity was out for nearly 8 hours and I was so sad….thinking how the morning before she left we’d shared pup and mom time in the sun on my back porch. I’m her caretaker and I felt lost in how to recover her. Most of all, I wanted to know she was safe, unhurt…okay. I can only imagine how a parent feels when their child is in danger.

I put out an APB to my neighbors and wandered the area. Then a day and a half later, she suddenly appeared on our porch stairs. I was SOOO happy, SOOOO grateful to see her. WHERE had she been?? I’ll probably never know.

We get used to what we are used to. But, ANYTHING can be taken away without a moments notice. I appreciate my world, my friends, my business and the fine people working in it, the new people coming into my life, the hard lessons, the generosity and heart I am witnessing, I am encouraged. I see light and am feeling a light breeze in my world. It’s been a long time coming. Perhaps that has to do with perspective and attitude as well???

All things come to pass. It’s NOW that excites me. And yesterday is so very much my teacher.

Doggie home, the fighting is over for now, new projects taking shape, an invincible team formulating at Carl House and a grateful me.

‘Under Construction’ is how I feel….a productive, exciting time…moving forward ‘as if’….as if all I, WE might dream possible IS!

The pendulum swings….ooooh, does it!!

Here’s to contentedly swinging along with your OWN pendulum ride!

BB Webb

 

The Vulture… May 15, 2011

We’re all quick to judge, certainly at times.

I find myself tucked under a blanket this cool, LOVELY May morning…listening to the sounds in my back forest, activity under cover of green, always exciting, fresh, new, settling to me.

The mighty, transforming powers of the vulture...

I yesterday worked with my favorite healer/massage therapist, Janice Davy. Her combination of disciplines ALWAYS leaves me feeling renewed, energized and grounded in both my humanity and lifted in my spirituality. She is magic. I came to her having hurt my back being overzealous in a new boot camp class I’m taking with the desire to strengthen muscles I’ve not been using of late. My mind took me beyond where my muscles and body were ready.

I’ve worked intentionally with energy before, studied with Dr. Fernand Poulin as did Janice, and I realize it is a tremendous unknown to most of us, yet I have seen mental, emotional and physical hurts shift with its intentionality. Suffice it to say, my body is still on the mend, but I am more rooted in what is happening within me, the shifts I’ve felt coming for years now.

So I watch the many trees in front of me dance with what might be one of the last cool breezes of spring gracing this Sunday morning. Italy was the launch of a great unknown for Lulu and me. And overhead most of this morning, I heard the great squacking of the grand vulture, one I in the past judged most harshly….that evil carrion, feeding off the dead, looming like a harbinger to death. And, perhaps he is, in a manner. Ted Andrews in his book, ‘Animal Speaks’ writes of the mighty, important buzzard, the vulture…

Buzzard-Vulture:
Buzzard or Vulture teaches the power of purification of the mind, body and spirit. Vulture aids accomplishing tasks through great patience and vision, using your sense of smell and discernment, and how to glide and soar with your own energy. He teaches efficiency in actions and promises that changes are imminent. He shows how to restore harmony of thoughts and feelings so one can reach new heights with little effort. Buzzards will aid in uncovering truths, clarifying previous conceptions, and allow to see and hear subtle hidden qualities using intuition and awareness. Buzzard can teach confidence and the ability to stand with dignity and soar with clarity and purpose. He shows how to seek a new and heightened vision while increasing sensitivity. It is time to soar above your perceived limitations. Are you currently undergoing an internal death and rebirth cycle? Are you ready to assert your actions from your ideas? Buzzard will aid in transforming knowledge to bring the unconscious to conscious and teach how to soar above it and bring the transformation you are needing at this time. Are you ready for these lessons of awakening?

So, perhaps this mighty, winged creature is telling me something….surely he is as he soars ably over my back porch with his reminding call. He prompts me forward…he knows where I am headed and the longings which pull me…

‘go there….go where you imagine, and let the wind guide you as it does me. Let go of what is no longer useful….move into what is calling you.’

I am listening. I surely am. I pray for courage, insight, heartful actions in all things and inspiration and luck to buoy me forward.

BB Webb

 

How might WE rise….on this Easter Day April 24, 2011

Rise from the very beliefs, habits, associations, which hold us back from our true desires and potential.

Might nature guide us back to the places where we feel most alive?

Might sitting with our breath awhile remind us of other places we might arrive within ourselves?

I have felt over the last weeks the pull toward my own freedom as well as the anchor of my own habits, ‘stories’ from my past and inability at times to MOVE from where I feel momentarily stuck. And yesterday it was like thick glue arresting my heart and my soul.

And then the wakeup reminders we experience, (through people is how I seem mostly to receive them, they like actors clad in their own stories, their mannerisms a products of the many years which shaped them, their talk, their nuances)….all serving to take me more deeply into myself if I’m open to going there.

And I watch at how people pace themselves noticing their same mixtures of desire for ‘more’, (as in purpose in their lives), and too how they are drawn to desires I share, or where they also hold back with trepidation, hints of some unconscious fear.

Yet, at mid century point, many of us seem a bit protective of the lives we have created, branching out too much either in new terrain, physically or emotionally, is not always so welcome, certainly not if we’ve found a ‘groove’ which suits us in many ways.

Though I consider too how perhaps at times we ‘protest too much’ and a wandering outside our ‘safe’ zone might be a VERY good thing.

I feel the need, desire to ‘cloister in’ often, in myself….selfish or fearful at times, perhaps, but honest. And if honestly is selfishness, or rather, claiming who I am and what I desire for myself considered selfish, so be it.

Even so, I’ll encourage myself to wander more from time to time….and this week…..off to Italy I go.

Maybe I’ll run into the Pope…and he’ll offer some clues??

Perhaps we might all rise from the dead of our own limitations, our own lethargy which keeps us mired in energies of the past.

‘Rise up’ I say….’Rise up!’

Why not?

BB Webb

 

Finding My Twirl…..oh Grateful Me! March 27, 2011

This quote graced my inbox this morning….

“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow. ” – Melody Beattie

This quote, reminder, as I’m finding MOST things which come to me, are gifts, codes, guides, encouragements or signs to help me on my path. And Melody Beattie’s served in just that way this morning. I loved the message in her book, ‘Co-Dependent No More’ which I read nearly 15 years ago. It helped me see my own patterns at that time.

I’m playing this morning with the thought of independence and interdependence. I have been both independent and co-dependent, at the same time. How can that be so?? It can.

My father was an interesting guide to me while living, (a different and blessed one in death as I feel his loving presence all around me). He was not one to issue compliments, did not speak of my brains or beauty. Perhaps my soul attracted him so I might learn it on my own. So, my history of who I attracted in the male world often held a level of codependency which thankfully in my 40s I learned to recognize and shift. I would be attracted to men who I THOUGHT might validate who I was….yet I RARELY picked ones who did….as they were patterns, ‘knock offs’ of my Dad. Good men in their own ways, but not the right ones for me.

I needed to discover my OWN sense of self worth. And I continue to, as no doubt we all do.

I am finding, that we attract what we are. If I’m needy, I attract such. A man (or woman) who can’t build up another, is not confident in themselves. What they put out to the world may not be their authentic self. We mirror one another and have the opportunity to learn, (if we’re listening) about ourselves through who we attract.

Find Your Twirl! Photo by Sarah Eubanks Photography

Consider conflict. How often is our first reaction to point a finger. We might consider ourselves the equal culprit. Then, the first thing to do is to forgive ourselves, make the situation what it IS and attempt to shift to something better fitting.

In meeting men and women of late, I notice that I have changed from those years and continue to change. I don’t need people in my world in the same way I have in the past, certainly not men.

But, I need them both to live most fully.

And when I meet either, I am most grateful to recognize their gifts to me. My best friend Lulu is one such example. I recognize our interdependence, how we bring out more in one another than had we not met. I feel SAFE in her presence, I feel her championing who I am AND calling me to the carpet, (in her loving way) when I’m amiss in some way…..not in sync with my true self.

I’ve quoted Carl Jung often, (paraphrased), ‘Love is the process of GENTLY guiding someone into themselves.’ I endorse such thought and hope to celebrate it through action, to the people I love.

And as with my pal Lulu, I’m meeting men in my world who are the same…heartful, be they friends, colleagues or more intimate connections. There is an openness to possibilities and less restriction than I found with my father who had his clear REQUIREMENTS and ‘right and wrong’ rules.

Were he here today in the flesh, I would celebrate who he is and demonstrate a NEW way to love, as he was so deserving.

This morning, I send out gratitude and thanks to the new people gracing my life and to myself for opening my heart to receiving new people, new influences who grace my business, my world….ME! I am perhaps, finding my ‘twirl’!

I encourage you to find YOUR own twirl. It’s certainly where I feel my best…in motion, most alive, free and in my own skin.

With love, always with love….BB Webb