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Exploring the Possibilities

The Vulture… May 15, 2011

We’re all quick to judge, certainly at times.

I find myself tucked under a blanket this cool, LOVELY May morning…listening to the sounds in my back forest, activity under cover of green, always exciting, fresh, new, settling to me.

The mighty, transforming powers of the vulture...

I yesterday worked with my favorite healer/massage therapist, Janice Davy. Her combination of disciplines ALWAYS leaves me feeling renewed, energized and grounded in both my humanity and lifted in my spirituality. She is magic. I came to her having hurt my back being overzealous in a new boot camp class I’m taking with the desire to strengthen muscles I’ve not been using of late. My mind took me beyond where my muscles and body were ready.

I’ve worked intentionally with energy before, studied with Dr. Fernand Poulin as did Janice, and I realize it is a tremendous unknown to most of us, yet I have seen mental, emotional and physical hurts shift with its intentionality. Suffice it to say, my body is still on the mend, but I am more rooted in what is happening within me, the shifts I’ve felt coming for years now.

So I watch the many trees in front of me dance with what might be one of the last cool breezes of spring gracing this Sunday morning. Italy was the launch of a great unknown for Lulu and me. And overhead most of this morning, I heard the great squacking of the grand vulture, one I in the past judged most harshly….that evil carrion, feeding off the dead, looming like a harbinger to death. And, perhaps he is, in a manner. Ted Andrews in his book, ‘Animal Speaks’ writes of the mighty, important buzzard, the vulture…

Buzzard-Vulture:
Buzzard or Vulture teaches the power of purification of the mind, body and spirit. Vulture aids accomplishing tasks through great patience and vision, using your sense of smell and discernment, and how to glide and soar with your own energy. He teaches efficiency in actions and promises that changes are imminent. He shows how to restore harmony of thoughts and feelings so one can reach new heights with little effort. Buzzards will aid in uncovering truths, clarifying previous conceptions, and allow to see and hear subtle hidden qualities using intuition and awareness. Buzzard can teach confidence and the ability to stand with dignity and soar with clarity and purpose. He shows how to seek a new and heightened vision while increasing sensitivity. It is time to soar above your perceived limitations. Are you currently undergoing an internal death and rebirth cycle? Are you ready to assert your actions from your ideas? Buzzard will aid in transforming knowledge to bring the unconscious to conscious and teach how to soar above it and bring the transformation you are needing at this time. Are you ready for these lessons of awakening?

So, perhaps this mighty, winged creature is telling me something….surely he is as he soars ably over my back porch with his reminding call. He prompts me forward…he knows where I am headed and the longings which pull me…

‘go there….go where you imagine, and let the wind guide you as it does me. Let go of what is no longer useful….move into what is calling you.’

I am listening. I surely am. I pray for courage, insight, heartful actions in all things and inspiration and luck to buoy me forward.

BB Webb

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That Start of Something New….Italia and beyond! May 8, 2011

Where have I been??? Not just Italy…but new places in my mind, my heart….a switch has flipped….oh grateful me. Grateful me!

I wrote last week:

Dinner at Susan's Villa...with Lulu...creating opportunities!

I find myself, thankfully, in the heart of the Umbria region of Italy, in the small town of Sismano…..overlooking a hillside of green cypress trees dotting the countryside and fields of winter wheat waving like baseball fans cheering their favorite player in the World Series. Birds tweet and cackle, a owl hoots in the distance and a dominating rooster can be heard off in the distance. Not being the least ungrateful for my 7 days away (2 of travel), I know already that a week is not nearly the time needed to unwind from the rapt intensity of my Atlanta business world or to develop my new work as fully as I might prefer. This trip I know is but a harbinger for things to come, and which I welcome and will celebrate over tasty wine this evening by a fire. The nights are cool here and my conversations with locals fun and funny as I work my limited Italian, described better as ‘Spanglish’!

In Todi with the Caribinieri! Men with guns!

Lovely how a brief sojourn can open the floodgates of creativity and opportunity.

We create our own luck. It’s there if we choose to embrace it.

The most gorgeous town of Todi!

I’m planning world adventures, next far away stop, Shanghai this fall and in the meantime, the wheels of creativity are turning…

and the people who I’m meant to meet, lining up like ready angels. I need only pay attention!

Duomo in Orvietto

I’m eager to receive them all.

12 year old Sean VanMeter, (musical partner in upcoming creative traveling endeavors), making his Italian debut!

Seeds planted, lots of fertilizer, ample sun and a smile of grand appreciation for having weathered my long, very long winter.

Ohhh, stay tuned, the fun is only beginning. And how perfect somehow, today being ‘Mother’s Day’….the grand creator she….I send love and blessings to my mother, creative, fun, funny, loving Kitty and to all with hearts full of creativity.

Nurture your passion and bear fruit with wild abandon….it’s the very thing which keeps us energized and alive.

Joi de vivre!

BB Webb

 

How might WE rise….on this Easter Day April 24, 2011

Rise from the very beliefs, habits, associations, which hold us back from our true desires and potential.

Might nature guide us back to the places where we feel most alive?

Might sitting with our breath awhile remind us of other places we might arrive within ourselves?

I have felt over the last weeks the pull toward my own freedom as well as the anchor of my own habits, ‘stories’ from my past and inability at times to MOVE from where I feel momentarily stuck. And yesterday it was like thick glue arresting my heart and my soul.

And then the wakeup reminders we experience, (through people is how I seem mostly to receive them, they like actors clad in their own stories, their mannerisms a products of the many years which shaped them, their talk, their nuances)….all serving to take me more deeply into myself if I’m open to going there.

And I watch at how people pace themselves noticing their same mixtures of desire for ‘more’, (as in purpose in their lives), and too how they are drawn to desires I share, or where they also hold back with trepidation, hints of some unconscious fear.

Yet, at mid century point, many of us seem a bit protective of the lives we have created, branching out too much either in new terrain, physically or emotionally, is not always so welcome, certainly not if we’ve found a ‘groove’ which suits us in many ways.

Though I consider too how perhaps at times we ‘protest too much’ and a wandering outside our ‘safe’ zone might be a VERY good thing.

I feel the need, desire to ‘cloister in’ often, in myself….selfish or fearful at times, perhaps, but honest. And if honestly is selfishness, or rather, claiming who I am and what I desire for myself considered selfish, so be it.

Even so, I’ll encourage myself to wander more from time to time….and this week…..off to Italy I go.

Maybe I’ll run into the Pope…and he’ll offer some clues??

Perhaps we might all rise from the dead of our own limitations, our own lethargy which keeps us mired in energies of the past.

‘Rise up’ I say….’Rise up!’

Why not?

BB Webb

 

Sometimes a new hat… April 19, 2011

My Jeannette Rankin 'High Hat' Fly baby fly....it's time!

And sometimes a new hairdo will do it too.

sometimes that's all it takes...

And a trip to Italy to just shake things up a bit.

Stay Tuned....

 

Finding My Twirl…..oh Grateful Me! March 27, 2011

This quote graced my inbox this morning….

“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow. ” – Melody Beattie

This quote, reminder, as I’m finding MOST things which come to me, are gifts, codes, guides, encouragements or signs to help me on my path. And Melody Beattie’s served in just that way this morning. I loved the message in her book, ‘Co-Dependent No More’ which I read nearly 15 years ago. It helped me see my own patterns at that time.

I’m playing this morning with the thought of independence and interdependence. I have been both independent and co-dependent, at the same time. How can that be so?? It can.

My father was an interesting guide to me while living, (a different and blessed one in death as I feel his loving presence all around me). He was not one to issue compliments, did not speak of my brains or beauty. Perhaps my soul attracted him so I might learn it on my own. So, my history of who I attracted in the male world often held a level of codependency which thankfully in my 40s I learned to recognize and shift. I would be attracted to men who I THOUGHT might validate who I was….yet I RARELY picked ones who did….as they were patterns, ‘knock offs’ of my Dad. Good men in their own ways, but not the right ones for me.

I needed to discover my OWN sense of self worth. And I continue to, as no doubt we all do.

I am finding, that we attract what we are. If I’m needy, I attract such. A man (or woman) who can’t build up another, is not confident in themselves. What they put out to the world may not be their authentic self. We mirror one another and have the opportunity to learn, (if we’re listening) about ourselves through who we attract.

Find Your Twirl! Photo by Sarah Eubanks Photography

Consider conflict. How often is our first reaction to point a finger. We might consider ourselves the equal culprit. Then, the first thing to do is to forgive ourselves, make the situation what it IS and attempt to shift to something better fitting.

In meeting men and women of late, I notice that I have changed from those years and continue to change. I don’t need people in my world in the same way I have in the past, certainly not men.

But, I need them both to live most fully.

And when I meet either, I am most grateful to recognize their gifts to me. My best friend Lulu is one such example. I recognize our interdependence, how we bring out more in one another than had we not met. I feel SAFE in her presence, I feel her championing who I am AND calling me to the carpet, (in her loving way) when I’m amiss in some way…..not in sync with my true self.

I’ve quoted Carl Jung often, (paraphrased), ‘Love is the process of GENTLY guiding someone into themselves.’ I endorse such thought and hope to celebrate it through action, to the people I love.

And as with my pal Lulu, I’m meeting men in my world who are the same…heartful, be they friends, colleagues or more intimate connections. There is an openness to possibilities and less restriction than I found with my father who had his clear REQUIREMENTS and ‘right and wrong’ rules.

Were he here today in the flesh, I would celebrate who he is and demonstrate a NEW way to love, as he was so deserving.

This morning, I send out gratitude and thanks to the new people gracing my life and to myself for opening my heart to receiving new people, new influences who grace my business, my world….ME! I am perhaps, finding my ‘twirl’!

I encourage you to find YOUR own twirl. It’s certainly where I feel my best…in motion, most alive, free and in my own skin.

With love, always with love….BB Webb

 

And the world turns. February 25, 2011

I am most definitely aware of my deficiencies. I am also becoming more aware of where I am not so deficient, expecting myself to be good at it all less and less. Oooooh, but I’m a task master to my very own soul.

Oh Popeye….he am what I am what you are. I’m over half a century old and I’m just now getting that. Certainly some shifts and turns one should not work to so ardently pursue, but rather work, I feel, to blossom the areas that need to bloom.

I’d so much rather flower, bloom where I am planted, than work to replant my very nature.

It’s going to be an amazing year. Love, light, abundance and joy.

And so, ooooooh, SO it is. Just watch!

BB Webb

 

And then a new idea came blazing in like a fire ball…. January 17, 2011

I don’t like restriction or limits. I’m often my own worst enemy as I’ll jot things on my calendar, some of the things on that dratted ‘should’ list. And if I don’t want to do it, I don’t. Who SAID I need to work out at 5pm. I’m going to make it 6pm or tomorrow.

Sadly in many cases that ridiculous obstinance can get in the way of things I really, REALLY do want to accomplish.

But, as a wise therapist said to me many times, many years ago….’you’ve gotta make things what they ARE before you can change them.’

Right on dude….I agree.

I am enjoying the coming of greater clarity in many areas within my life…..understanding better what I do and don’t have time for or interest in at this point in my life. I like how it feels to be ‘on the grow’. Like a kudzu plant eager to climb a wall, I’m intent on scaling the Matterhorn of my potential in new realms and anything less acts like a scour pad on my soul. ‘Cut it out’ I hear myself say….impatient with anything that doesn’t smell the scent of my passions.

So, I’m not always fun to be around as my myopic-ness sure ain’t for everyone.

But I don’t care to be ‘for everyone’.

And today, I met with a realtor who got and encouraged my vision for the back 30 plus acres I own….(yes, me and the bank)!!….behind my lovely Carl House. The payments to land that has fallen drastically in value, without a bungalow to warrant a rent to defray the cost of my note, can become rather burdensome. I’m a frugal gal, good at hunting down ‘finds’ at thrift stores and managing my frequent flyer points for, (for instance) a trip to Shanghai in the fall, (more on that another day)….because my money right now goes to land. And I STILL feel it can be a worthy investment…..with the proper creativity applied.

And, I like being creative. In fact, when I’m not being so, I tend to wilt and any glow I might have had goes nearly ashen. So, create I must.

And it was this very day that with this realtor, and the lovely woman who sold me my home which I LOVE…hidden near a forest, a rustic a frame sort of abode that is entirely ME…..we came up with the thought of ‘Carl House Estates’ behind my buidling….my vision being the following…..

assisted living facilities, hotel and corporate retreat center, restaurant, shops, music events, doctors offices, a regular community….gee, I’ve even considered a pet cemetery. So, I’m making calls….and I’m beginning to really get somewhere!!

We all laughed together considering my new by line for Carl House…

‘Carl House, for all the IMPORTANT events of your life’ Get married at Carl House, have your business meetings outback, celebrate the kids birthdays, Bar Mitzvahs, Retirement Parties, shop with us, eat with us, visit Grandma at her assisted living venue, and when Pookey the poodle passes on, we have a resting place for him as well.

You laugh NOW……ha! Every ‘something’ starts with an….an…..AN IDEA!

True, I might be mad, but I’ve considered the alternatives and they interest me NOT!! Mad Hatter, I get you!

Let the fun begin!! Indeed!

BB Webb