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Of Mice and Men September 19, 2009

John Steinbeck continues to be a favorite author of mine. I wasn’t much of a reader as a kid though had a reading list I was required to complete before attending my new school in 9th grade. That was a great summer. One of my first books from the list was Steinbeck’s Of Mice and Men. I loved it. Years later in college, studying theatre, I was cast in the theatrical version of the book. (More about Of Mice and Men).

I felt the complexity of the love between slow witted Lennie and his guardian, George. I’m all for the underdog and my heart related to the angst and complexity of choices presented to Lennie’s champion, George.

Lennie & George...by the river

Lennie & George...by the river

I spend a lot of my weekend time at the computer tip tapping away at one project or another, it’s my ‘down time’. With movies muted in the background, I click on the volume at only the best parts. Steinbeck’s 1939 version of Of Mice and Men was on today as torrents of rain fell outside the tall A-frame windows of my snug, hideaway house.

This, Steinbeck’s first novel put to the screen by Lewis Milestone, (to be followed by many others, Grapes of Wrath, another favorite, the following year), I happened upon the final seen where Burgess Meredith, (playing George) is about to seal Lennie’s fate, with compassion and grace, (Lennie played beautifully by Lon Chaney, Jr.).

We are all presented with decisions within our lives which give us pause. I am this week considering how to allow the slings and arrows of my own judgements and interpretations of things, (particularly to myself), and certainly those of others toward me, just pass through to hit the wall behind me.

With that, I am considering how I might take the variety of issues I wrangle with and create three columns, as my friend 2Lu suggests. What do I want, what am I willing to accept with that issue, and what is non-negotiable. NOTHING is black and white, not even black, nor white….our world’s are influenced by our upbringing, our environment our DNA and energetic imprint. This I feel is true.

How to keep ‘things’ less personal though to remain engaged, when we choose and, full of heart.

Life is a negotiation. And, I continue to believe, a celebration with the right mindset.

Some days I have that mindset and well…..at other times a good movie fills the bill.

A classic ending.

BB Webb

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Oh Sinnerman…. August 19, 2009

A favorite song, a favorite scene, a favorite theme….

Slight of hand…perspective….Magritte….life….Nina Simon…

Intriguing…

Where ya gonna run to….?????

BB Webb

 

The Gift of Receiving! Part 3 August 9, 2009

So….’The Gift of Receiving Part 3.’ I’ve been chatting about….oooh……..this and that….our ability to receive, accept the cool things which come our way…..I invite you to read on….

The other evening, when shopping at Nordstom’s ‘Off the Rack’, I had to call my dear friend 2Lu to say…’Oh my God 2Lu…you’ll never believe what I have in my hands…the most gorgeous little black, short sleeved top which fits perfectly. It says size 4 (I should of known then it was a top name brand, women like to feel small, and men want to be BIG and the top names play to this need). Size 4 I clearly am not. I am a broad shouldered 8 or 6. My body likes where it is.

I told my friend that at first I thought it was marked down to $1.99. I am rather proud of the fact that I can put together an ensemble of clothing, jewelry, shoes and the attitude to go with it at the cost of a carnival ride, and look great! I laughed out loud telling my friend that I just then noticed it was Armani and the original price was $324.00, marked down to $199.00, (not the thrift store price of $1.99 which I assumed it to be), and now $89.99.

UNflippin believable!!!

Now, don’t get me wrong, it was a beautifully fitting, decently made garment with lovely fabric, though as simple to make as hot coffee and no doubt cost as much to make. Talk about profit margin. Maybe I’m in the wrong business. I just don’t get it!

I realized then that I am all about two things, (well many more really, but here are two), quality and value. (I’ve not forgotten my receiving premise, hang with me). I’m not a cheap person, never have been. I’ve been frugal at my most opulent times and lavish when I didn’t have a dime. I feel certain that there will be a time in my life and career when I might give mightily to one charity, trust or cause, be able to travel whenever and wherever, stay at the most lush and expensive hotel I choose and buy whatever I might imagine at whatever obscene price it’s being played out on the market.

However…..allow me please to repeat that….HOWEVER….. I feel certain I will pick and choose with regard to what makes sense to me. A well made suit holds an energy that one of less quality does not hold. How and when that is important, to me, will be the question.

Priorities are indeed what we spend our time AND our money on.
So, if you are still with me…back to receiving. Having accepted my Bali surprise vacation and gift (see my last blog entry), I feel I am doing better at receiving and just saying thank you to the Universe or whoever might be the one giving to me. How funny then that last month I misplaced (carelessly lost), BOTH my coveted iPod AND my camera, two pieces of technology, (thank goodness I still have my Blackberry).

No music!!! No camera!!! I adore both. I listen to music and sing and dance daily….it’s part of who I am. I take photos at every switch and turn, I frame them, I give them away, I document my journeys. What is THIS about?

My father once showed me a pair of shoes he had for 25 years. He was a World War II survivor, (literally, Purple Heart and all), with a mother who seemed to value manners and cleanliness more than she did the demonstration and education in how to love. My father taught me the importance of caring for my ‘things’ and generally I do.

I remember being aghast at my first Christmas with my former husband, (we were still dating) and his then VERY small children, 3, 6 and 8. Money was very tight for me and I remember painstakingly picking out special gifts for his children, wrapping them with great care, placing them just so under the Christmas tree. Much to my horror, their Christmas ritual was much different from mine; his children entered the house, ran to the tree and within 10 short minutes had torn open their plethora of gifts, toys, games, clothes. Gifts lay strewn throughout the room like wounded soldiers.

I remember having to back away feeling terrificially nauseous. My gifts were thrown about, hidden under wrapping, never used and well, no thank you. As I helped clean up I noticed that one had already been broken. I wish I’d known about managing my expectations back then. Maybe I just needed to buy better gifts. Disappointing. It’s clearly time for me to change and to stop expecting that the world will. Rather arrogant really of me to think the latter!

So, iPod and camera gone. I went through an old feeling of lack and fear of not having enough to get by, (I’ve been there) to a more sensible disappointment, (there it is again), in being so careless and feeling on the wrong side of due diligence in wasting money as of course I needed to have both, music and images being so central to my day-to-day living.

So, I walked into Best Buy and Mike and I became instant pals. He knew technology and I love to learn. When he shared that he was paid by the hour and had plenty of time to help me make my decision, I was relieved, (goodness knows I’d hate to burden the clerk who is paid to help me when he could be helping others). Another win, I let him care for ME. ‘Good BB, good girl. You’re allowed to be cared for. People often want to’. Okay, good news. Maybe it’ll soon sink in.

Well, I didn’t go for the ‘Armani’ camera, but a certain level of quality and function was imperative to me despite wanting to watch my spending on these recently lost items of mine. So, I chose the Nikon with the great focus options and the high pixels, despite the crappy AA batteries I had to buy and the recharger. Damn. That ALMOST made me go to a lesser model, (on principal really), but no, focus is important to me and I didn’t’ mind that the camera was a bit bigger than the sexy, small, colorful ones. Stature is fine with me and just as I don’t care to be a size 4, I also don’t mind carrying a bit of a larger camera to get the images I want and frankly NEED. Ahhh, so we’re talking NEED now.

Ooooh, am I really expanding my ability to manifest based on what I feel is possible, what I now seem to feel I NEED? That black Armani shell is seeming more attractive to me.

My thinking around this whole Bali trip, losing my camera and iPod, receiving, allowing, giving was brewing inside me as Mike and I picked my memory cards and cute cases for holding my iPod for when I worked out. I’d model the carrying case and he’d give me a thumbs up or down. (I love twenty-somethings, they know the importance of sexy with technology!) I could feel logic kicking in – ‘so, I saved on the airline ticket, even came out ahead with my frequent flyer points….hmmmmm, so, does my need to purchase $800 worth of music capability and photographic clarity nix this gift?’

Then came my big ‘aha’. My gift was certainly not nixed, it rather expanded my ability to imagine my own abundance and prosperity. It allowed me to see the loss of my camera and iPod as a sort of tithing to the universe. Someone, somewhere was having a ball no doubt with either one of my lost items and purchased iTunes. Maybe they hadn’t yet imagined their own abundance and prosperity and my gift to them was the ability to imagine or see it! Grand!

AND, my greater gift was a snazzy new camera. (oh it’s fine, despite the deplorable battery design) and an iPod now that will hold many more tunes, carry my photos, connect me to the internet and well, I think it’ll do my laundry if I can just find the right button. Damn, I may break down shortly and buy some REALLY good speakers for home listening!!

What a gift and what a grand receiver I’m becoming.
Here’s to living better, making conscious choices and hey, REEEEEEEALLY enjoying your life!!

And…..P.S.

….speaking of gifts….might I mention one of my favorite characters in a film…John Coffey from ‘The Green Mile’. MV5BMTc0MDkxODY5MV5BMl5BanBnXkFtZTYwMDg2NTY3._V1._SX400_SY267_He was a man with a gift who clearly gifted others. A hug to John Coffey, a beautiful man played soulfully by actor Michael Clarke Duncan. ‘The Green Mile’ was directed by Frank Darabont.

Film reflecting life!

BB Webb

 

Priorities are what you spend your time on… August 1, 2009

A busy week leading to a weekend with needed breathing space. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh……

I’m mesmerized by the thought that:

‘priorities are what we spend our time on.’

I look back at my week and find myself sorting through activities now past, intentions spoken, a pile of seeming priorities laying wait for me to tend to…left like drift wood on the beach. Will I go back and pick them up?

Maybe I’ll just be moving on to new things…remembering that I have this moment, then the next and next, always fresh and always new for what I deem important or NOT, I suppose.

It’s life. Vast, open, unnamed unless we name it.

Breathing space is clearly a priority and I will fill it well this weekend and consider myself focused and fortunate that I did.

And for a moment perhaps, the army of ‘priorities’ which I carefully name and fill my ‘to do’ list with, need just wait like ready soldiers for their time.

Is that thought then an oxymoron to the whole idea of priorities being what we spend our time on…if I am willy nilly about things I say are important, tardy on tending to them as I say?

I found this intriguing video which somehow fits where I am today. Don’t know the artist, what it means, but well…… I like it.

May your priorities hug and kiss you like sweet lovers, never harsh, just present with a smile.

BB Webb

 

The Awwwesome, (though often misinterpreted), Power of the Internet!! July 16, 2009

Bridal Path 06 HIt seems that my beautiful event venue, (Carl House), got in the crossfire of some misinterpreted blogging under my own pen, (or rather keyboard). A frightened bride misunderstood my post, (forgive me). I’m a fairly transparent personality, compelled somehow to share the ups and downs and turnarounds in my life, with the hope that I’ll illuminate someone else’s journey.

Apparently when sharing some of the emotional ups and downs of running a thriving business, in a recent post, a precious bride misinterpreted my sharing, thinking my business was in jeopardy!! Well….nothing is further from the truth….frankly after a challenging year (whose wasn’t), of learning how to become a better leader, we’re kicking this economy in the gut and building business in new and better ways.

And yes, the ups and downs all DO feel personal to me as an owner at times, misunderstandings, sadness when people come or go from your business…either they aren’t a fit, or they retire, or move onto other opportunities. It’s challenging, but all necessary for positive growth….and that’s what we’re having.

Chef Melanie in the Kitchen Since Ms. Faye retired, (forever immortalized, I named the Mezzanine after her), Brooke Rios has come on as Director of Sales. She is out and about networking, drumming up new and different biz, along with booking all kinds of weddings into 2011. We LOVE our brides! Denise Myers our Senior Wedding Director has been with me since the beginning and I hope will retire here. And for a woman who does not like change, she has weathered through some wonderful growth here over the last 7 years. Melanie Hanke, our Executive Chef, just created some new, scrumptious kick-butt menus which our brides are LOVING. So all is well and I feel luckier than….well…than most people I know.

BB Living Life with Style And yes, I am more than the owner of Carl House, I’m probably a most peculiar woman to some….I have vast interests, write about all different kinds of things, have a background in theatre and am hell bent on creating a new PBS television show featuring extraordinary women in business. I have many irons and many fires burning…Carl House being my primary focus and love!

And next week I am talking to a man who may have interest in building a hotel on the back 28 acres I own behind Carl House. Exciting times indeed.

So dear brides, who I so appreciate and adore, rest assured, BB Webb has only BEGUN to build her empire. We hope you’ll come join in the fun. (And when you stop by, please ask for me, I’d like to meet you, give you a hug and congratulate you on whatever needs congratulating)!!

With love to you all.

BB Webb

 

One of my heroines. June 24, 2009

Filed under: People I Admire,Television & Other Media,The Arts — BB Webb @ 9:58 am

Helen Mirren. ‘nuf said. Stunningly brilliant, beautiful, bold and best of all, brave. And British, my vote for the best actors around!

Might I sparkle a milligram as bright as she. Here’s to passion!

‘Bad Things’, (True Blood Theme Song)! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oyAXatvqf2Y

Rock on Helen!!

BB Webb