BB Webb as BB Webb!

Exploring the Possibilities

No, not a meltdown…. June 20, 2011

….maybe I’m in need of a Cool Off at this point in my day.

My dog Ernie woke me by jumping on my bed, (pretty much not allowed) at 5am. I remember seeing a small tick on my sheets the other evening after he did the same thing and POPPED out of bed this morning determined to not awaken with a grey tick engorged on my forehead.

Awwww, that’s gross.

The day has tumbled about in a gray, mired, misery and though I know that IT, like a bloated belly, (damn, I’m full of the fun images today), passes…..I’m just not able to get my arms around things in a matter I prefer today and I’m uneasy.

So, I’ll allow a venting of sorts though will mostly take it out on a loooong evening fast walk up and down hills tonight. I’m sort of pissed.

Pissed when people fall short of expectations, or when I fall short of my own.

Upset when disconnects bring back memories that have NOTHING to do with what might be currently disconnecting.

Weary, perhaps of my mind and her shuffling about periodically with doom and gloom, certainly after rallying for YEARS now on such a different path.


But, I am human, I fall short, I forget and most of all, I’m DOG TIRED.

Well, fitting all that, with the early morning doggie wake up call.

Tomorrow, a new day to appreciate the NEW people I met today, (some terrific ones), the work done, the efforts rallied and that I’m here, on the earth to explore, create, meet neat folks, stumble and get up to try again. And, maybe fall in love.

BB Webb

 

It’s all new….let it be new….it’s all new. June 12, 2011

A band came to play at Carl House last weekend. As the owner, well, it’s not considered kosher to hop into the middle of the dance circle and rock out….but I am a dancer….I was maybe born wiggling and moving fresh from the womb. I need action and movement. And I feel action and movement coming after a long winter’s…..hmmmmm, sleep is not the correct word, but after a looong winter’s having to PAY ATTENTION in ways that don’t come as naturally to me.

But I’m smart and capable in ways, perhaps moreover, tenacious as hell….learning when to yield and not drive every moment, opportunity, urge, feeling that pops forth. Perhaps, to wait a breath to receive a bit more, allow things to softly come to me.

Perhaps you are similar….I suppose I was born a warrior type and acting other ways takes a tremendous degree of mindfulness for me. So, I practice breathing, waiting, seeing what it’s like to let things come to me a bit, while others initiatives I know need my urging….and this I can do easily….it’s how I’m made. Not everyone sings to my same tune and I’ve grown to accept these differences….not to take them all so personally when people don’t glean to this energetic of mine. I’m clearly NOT for everyone. Are any of us??

So, the band that visited Carl House last weekend, Brookwood Split, they have been on my mind, especially the Pointer Sisters song they sing, ‘I’m So Excited,’ as I am….excited….about all manner of things creeping into my view.

I find my sitting high in a high rise in a North Carolina city, appreciating the sun, the time to think, my electronics surrounding me (ahhhh, my new iPad….ooooh the joy), my phone and computer….I can spot check my business, gather all manner of information from around the world, download books, music, communicate with my friends and take pictures to document my journey if I choose. And, to write, book ideas, tv thoughts….business plans. I need this time to visualize as I know when I do, lovely things evolve. Always. ALWAYS! Or better.

As music plays in my ears, it inspires me, to move, yes, physically, but more, to move the ideas which have been and continue to hummm in my ears…..stories are taking shape as is my body which I am plying with new moves, teaching it to do new things. I’m eager to learn to sing better, perhaps new dance classes to see how else to coax my body to move and express what’s inside. I’ve planned a dance party at Carl House next Friday after our wine pairing dinner (please join us)…and I hope we have a crowd ready to romp and play….as I certainly am and this time, the owner WILL rock the dance floor.

‘I’m so excited, I just can’t hide it, I think I’m going to lose control and I just might like it.’ That’s right…losing control is where true creativity blossoms and I’m birthing all manner of explosions. The right time, the right scene, partners be they business, friend or love partners…..there’s just no limit to what any of us can do, create, imagine, manifest, conjure forth or reckon.

I have new eyes. I really do. And they are seeing through my lens clearly. I take nothing for granted and appreciate ALL that comes my way.

It’s my choice….and I’m focusing on all good. Ooooh, this or better God…Universe….THIS or better, please.

So, yes, I’m so excited….and I just can’t hide it…..moving forward with ideas, a big heart, lessons a plenty to guide me. It’s time to dance, create, and damn, have some fun…..

….trust me on this one. And, it’s totally up to you, up to me. You can do it. So, together, let it be new….and let’s get excited!! Travel to new places and baby, let it happen, go on, abandon of the safety zone. Go on now….do it!! I’m there with you! Lead with your heart, use your mind and know, for certain, that in your own way, YOU are perfect!

These ladies know what I’m talking about…..go Cristie, Nika y Natalia!!

With love,

BB new eyes.

 

It Started with A Teal Circle… June 11, 2011

Drape me please in teal

….in the middle of a luscious brown cement floor. I love discovering new spaces which FEEL right to me.

I walked into the Athens Salon and Spa and was immediately inspired, by the colors, the decor, the product line (Bb shampoos and conditioners), the jewelry and the entire business model which each practitioner demonstrated will skillfull savvy and warmth.

I’m in North Carolina…have been all week….I’m on a transformative journey….finding my way, the manner in which I want to spend my days….how I might coax a new feel, a new look, a new body, a shifted outlook. And, it’s been fun. I’ve hired a trainer who’s helping me to season some muscles who really love to stretch and play.

More on this blog later, but for the moment, a teaser….I met some new friends before leaving Georgia….at a hair salon where I was again exploring a new look….away with long tresses, they just aren’t me…..sassy and shorter is me.

Below, one of the lovely hair goddesses, Ami, bedecked in peacock tatoos and so much more, and Elizabeth, in the hat, who coiffed me in new fashion.

More comments to come….sleep beckons this weary body. Enjoy the body art on these new friends of mind, bold, courageous, lovely young women. What a fun afternoon we had last Saturday.

More news to share shortly….





BB Webb